Hiccups

This week has been a little bit harder.  First of all, I had trouble eating as I often felt "stuck" when I ate.  And second of all, I had cravings, to which I succumbed, for chips and chocolate.  I got mild dumping symptoms but nothing too bad or aversive, which scares me because I was hoping that I would dump if I strayed too much from what I should be eating and that would help me stay in line.  Oh well!  I guess I'll really have to deal with my food issues because I know for sure that I'm not craving or eating those things because of real hunger.  They're serving another purpose, avoiding, soothing?  I'm not sure but if dumping won't make me stay in line, I'll need to figure out what's going on and learn to deal with it in a different way.  I know taking a walk does help and a few weeks ago, I remember craving comfort food (mac 'n cheese would have been lovely that night coming home after a hard session with a client) but since I thought I couldn't have it, I started to really want to go and take a long walk.  So that's one thing I can fall back on.  But still, I can't just learn to cope with the aftermath of whatever's going on.  I want to understand what is making me feel like that.  Hey, I'm a Psychologist and I wouldn't be a very good one if I didn't want to go THERE...  To be continued!

Moving on...  I'm going to sign up for ballet classes.  For as long as I can remember, I've always been in awe of ballerinas.  I love their tutus and their gracefulness.  Watching So you think you can dance, this amazement has expanded to dancers in general.  I truly admire their dedication, their passion and their strenght and flexibility.  I'm also envious and bewildered about their innate ability to really BE in their body and to express themselves so clearly through it.  I want that and I'm going to try and get it.  I'm thinking about some kind of martial arts classes too.  Don't know which one yet, I'll have to look into that.