Catch me if you can

Yesterday, I felt lousy, as in apathetic, down, stressed, demotivated, tired, and a bit sad.  I was supposed to work on my thesis - my first submitted article got rejected and this really bummed me hard - but instead, I surfed on the web all day, looking at the post-Oscars coverage, mostly the dresses, going on Facebook, basically wasting the whole day on nothing.  I know that my feeling bad was at least in part caused by what I did, or rather what I didn't do, during the day.  So why did I waste my time instead of focusing on my work, which usually makes me feel good by the end of the day?  Because when I work on my thesis, it's hard and it confronts me to feelings of incompetence and of being an impostor.  Anybody ever heard of the impostor syndrome?  That's basically how I feel most of the time.  The thing is, even though I feel lousy while I'm working, at the end of the day, I feel good because I did what I was supposed to do and I made some progress, no matter how small it may be.  I think this may have to do something with a delayed gratification thing.  Point is, I felt lousy yesterday and what do I do when I feel lousy?  I tend to...  (drum roll please) EAT!!!  I don't go on binges anymore but I do eat even if I'm not hungry.  And since the surgery, I noticed a very clear pattern of eating more and for other reasons than hunger when I feel lousy.  I think it's good that I'm seeing this pattern more clearly now but I also think that I need to address the more deeply rooted issue of why I feel lousy and why I feel like a fraud.  I bought this book, The Procrastination Equation by Piers Steel, it's the next book on my list.  I hope it's going to help me, I'll keep you posted.  Meanwhile, I'm doing to resort to doing what has worked for me in the past, that is setting very specific and short-time goals, with clear deadlines from my advisor and hope for the best.