Letting go

One surprising effect of the gastric bypass surgery I had nearly 9 months ago is the fact that through the imposed restrictions, I enjoy a newfound freedom.  You see, after you have this type of surgery, your stomach is very significantly reduced to restrict the amount of food you can ingest, thus leading to weight loss.  This has been the case for me.  The surgery is working extremelly well for me so far.  But before the surgery, I thought it would be hard to not eat as much as I'd want or not eat what I'd like and it sometimes is.  However, in my case, there's a bit of a catch in the sense that the surgery kind of works despite me.  I'll admit that I eat mostly well.  I've always had a very varied diet but a very strong preference for very rich, fatty foods and lots of it.  Now, with the surgery, I can't eat lots of it even though I sometimes intend to.  And with the dumping syndrome that comes with the gastric bypass surgery, my tastes are changing, and I don't enjoy and like the same rich and fatty foods anymore because they tend to make me feel queasy. 

The consequence of all of this is that more often than not, sticking to "how much and what I'm supposed to eat" is not that hard.  So the surgery allowed me to stop constantly worrying about what and how much I should be eating because I pretty much eat what and how much I want whenever I feel like it and I'm still losing weight.  So I'm guessing that I must be doing something right.  I should mention that I also exercise everyday by talking a 30 minutes walk with my dog.  But still, I've finally been able to let go of the conscious and mental control of my eating to focus on eating how much I need and what I want.  You have no idea how liberating this feels.  I still have worries about eating the wrong stuff and/or too much of it and I'm guessing that time will make it better although I don't think it'll ever go away completely.  However, I can feel my troubled eating days being further and further behind me and it feels amazing!!